So bored

I'm so fucking bored I'd kill myself just for the fun of landing in a hospital being asked strange question by strange people but the problem is, how to get to a hospital? Nobody cares about me remotely enough to be worried and call an ambulance and it's a bit stupid to go there by myself by bus, with my wrists open, like "Hi, I tried to kill myself, can I have a room please?".
No school, nothing to do, stupid fucking village, no money, bad weather, all the chaos here, it sucks. I don't see how others get everything they (don't even need to) wish for, just naturally, and I don't get shit. All I ever get to do is sit in front of the TV and eat. I'm not allowed to enjoy life any more than that. It's not fair and I'm not taking it much longer. I am the ONLY person in this world that I know of, who's ugly, lonely, hated, ignored and has no succes at anything. All I do is attract niggers.
Just kicked my mother off my MSN. It annoys me so bad that she keeps commenting on my status there. It's none of her fucking business what I write behind my MSN name. I don't want to answer questions that I deem redundant. You don't ask questions about personal quotes or nicknames, it's annoying. I refuse to even considering to answer questions that I don't find a convenient answer for the second I'm being asked. And why should I bother. Why should I think about an answer to the question "Why did you write ... in your MSN nickname?", "How are you?", etc? Those are stupid, annoying questions. I'm not answering them. It's like asking a director why the woman in his movie wears blue jeans. JUST BECAUSE, YOU MOTHERFUCKING PIECE OF WHORESHIT!!! How annyoing is that to have to think of WHAT to answer, HOW to answer, the TIMING of answering, the CONSEQUENCES of the answer, the LENGTH of the conversation depending on the answer, etc.? For such a stupid question? The mere idea of answering annoying questions disgusts me. Last Saturday I was fucking that annoying nigger again. Some guy named Momococo. He asked if I liked him. What an annoying question. How can I like someone who's more than 40 years old, who's annoying, who asks personal questions, who talks so softly I hardly understand him, who stays longer than he paid for, who thinks he's good enough to be my boyfriend etc.? How can I like that nigger? Absolutely unthinkable. But he dared ask tht question and it's still pissing me off and I hope he dies. He mustn't ask questions I find inconvenient to answer. My closest friends are the only ones allowed to do that. That's 2 (read: TWO) persons. Not my family (lol "family", fuck you all), not my stupid customers who can't find a woman who'd fuck them for free, not anyone. If I said no, he'd be pissed and I'd be forced to discuss with him. He's old, poor, illegal = not worth talking to. If I said yes, he'd stay and steal my invaluable time. Yes, my time is worth more than a poor old man's. He has NO legal ID papers, NO money, NO respect. I've checked his wallet when he was on the toilet. He's an illegal immigrant with no such thing as credit cards. Eeeew. Such people should die.